same old same old

I'm overwhelmed lately.   There's this overbearing stress on my shoulders that manifests itself as knots in my back.  I don't really sleep.   When I do sleep, it feels like I haven't slept anyway.

It's getting really hard.  It's getting to that frustrating and tiring and lonely point.

But today sort of helped.  Abe said only 3% of us make it.  That the successful people are the ones who are suffering the most.  

I guess it's food for thought.

I'm not gonna give up or anything, it's all a part of routine, and everything gets better.  But it's hard to live in the singular moment and enjoy the stress. 

I want a day to myself to hop onto a plane and go somewhere else.

So I'll be driving alone this time around.  It hasn't been so bad.

I'm gonna lighten my hair again this weekend.  Gonna be white-wall-white.  Then GAGA in 7 days.

I can't wait can't wait can't wait