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STEP ONE GET OFF MY ASS

STEP TWO QUIT SMOKING

So I just started running again for the first time in fucking months aaauuughh.   When school started, I had a weird living situation and weird money situation so I had canceled my gym membership and I'm too weird about running around outside once it's dark.  And I'm also too lazy to wake up early enough before school to run outside in the mornings.  So I just stopped exercising.

But I've gotten so fed up lately not getting up and moving everyday.  It makes me feel lethargic and sluggish and it was a good go-to for stress.  Soothes my anxiety.  So I went out and bought a new gym pass yesterday.   I ran for an hour tonight, and christ my lungs.  They feel like they're on fire still.

Last year when I'd run everyday I didn't smoke at all, but when I stopped running I started smoking again.  Boooo.   So I'm quitting now.  Threw away my pack, now I'm accountable, nooowww I can't smoke anymore.


Wish me luck